So its December!! Just thought i'd write a little blog in the lead up to christmas, I may be 20 but it's still my favourite time of year I'm a sucker for bit of christmas cheer, just ask my house mates I may as well be a little christmas elf!! despite christmas just being just around the corner and only have a couple of days left at uni, the stress of deadlines and fear of a relapse is leaving me shattered.
I'm sure as soon as I get home i'll be full of joy but at the moment i'm so paranoid that as everyone has colds and god knows what else, so that fear of a relapse is just around the corner! I've been stable on 8mg of steroids for a month now and that is a stupidly exciting, but as soon as I realise anyone around me is ill I go into a panic about relapsing! I'm pretty sure this must be the case for a lot of us!
I'm sure it isn't just me either who puts pressure on themselves to be well for christmas, besides it's meant to be a time of enjoyment the last thing I want is a relapse. I think my fear comes from 2 years ago when after a checkup I found out I was having one of the worst relapses i've had and I spent christmas on 50mg of steroids, don't get me wrong it was still a fab christmas but it just feels poop to put loved ones under all that pressure that this time of year!
I guess as much as Christmas is the best time of the year it also brings up a hell of a lot of anxiety to families like us!
Just wanted to finish on a positive note by saying Merry Christmas to all of you lovely people who take the time to read my waffle and thank you all for the support! Here's to a healthy and yellow 2017 for us all x
