I AM SO SORRY, it has been so long since I last wrote a blog but I have had the craziest few months (okay 5 months but who is counting right?) It has been madness this end, I'm under 2 weeks away from finishing my university and moving back home for the final time before me and boyfriend move up to Lincoln for good, life's moving on and I'm freaking out! Hoping everyone thats getting through school, exams and stress okay as well!
Anyway, I know I have always been an advocate of going out and getting what you want from life despite of nephrotic syndrome. Trust me I still think that this shouldn't stop us, but all I wanted to say today is that sometimes you've got to give yourself a break. I am beyond proud of myself for what i've achieved this year: being able to submit a 11,000 word dissertation and getting a 2.1 in it, securing a place on teacher training and completing university in general. All I'm saying is that i've been incredibly run down, burnt out and it's not exactly ideal.
I'm running on, but what I’m trying to say is that it's okay to be tired, it's okay to be run down, and it is 100% okay to be in your pyjamas at 7pm on a Saturday night eating Ben and Jerry's (as I am right now) once in a while, we all deserve the rest. Sometimes I need reminding that i'm not super girl, I can't charge around at full speed all the time and think that my body is going to cope with it.
It's been 5 years next month and sometimes I forget I'm ill, I know that can only be a good thing, but at the same time I can't feel guilty when I need a rest or can't keep up with everyone else. Trust me i've felt the guilt, having to go home rather than stay out with friends; I end up trying to explain to everyone why i'm tired because I always feel like I owe them that. My closest friends always tell me to stop being stupid and that I don't owe them an explanation.
Just look after yourself, if you need a night in and Netflix binge then go for it. Don't run yourself down to completely empty, i've been there and it's not fun. Yes you can do whatever you want with your life, even with NS but maybe have a night in before you try and conquer the world.
