But you can call me Moon face

Sorry I've been AWOL for a month or so, there never seems a lot of point writing until I can find something mildly entertaining and relatable to talk about, I guess this is less of a serious one but its something that still bothers me a lot even after 4 years of steroids- the dreaded moon face.

I read on one of the support pages recently some comments about how quickly once on a lowered dose your face can decrease back to a normal size, well i'm guessing that it varies from person to person (I'm not an expert!) but my face size has gone up and down with my dose of pred like a yo yo, with it getting to its biggest when I spent prolonged periods on really high doses. But honestly as a vain teen/ young person (21 is a weird age!) I've had serious hate for my appearance just because of steroids.

It took looking back over various old photo albums to bring back the emotions of how down I got at the time just because of something as little as a round scone face, but honestly it has had a big impact on my self esteem, I constantly think I have a round face again despite knowing I'm pretty much back to normal on 10mg of steroids and every time I have to up my dose I feel like I'm constantly looking for changes and the scone face return!

I know vanity is really the last thing you expect me to write about, I mean steroids are keeping me well so having a face that shines like the moon is a small price to pay. But, actually when your feeling low because of being ill, things like this do get to you especially as a teenagers with raging hormones as well as a body full of meds.

Thanks to the wonders of makeup I spend a lot of my time contouring the heck out of my face to make myself feel better and don't worry guys I read in one of those glossy rag magazines that the 'round face is back in fashion' spoken like people actually have a choice in the shape of their face?? But anyway maybe our time is coming!

On that note as much as I might feel slightly exposed I'm going to add some pictures to show how much steroids have varied my face, as my friend once said I'm not 'destined to be eternal moonchild'!

(the photos move from first diagnosis, to a prelonged period on high, when I hated how I looked which was hard to find pics of because i mostly covered my face with my hand! To more recent times when I've spent longer on lower doses!)

keep fighting and smiling x